Conviction. It is what happens when we know that we should be doing something that we are not. It's the tap on the shoulder, the clearing of the throat, the overwhelming feeling that we know without a shadow of a doubt that God had just mentioned our name from the heavens. He reached down through someone else's thoughts, sayings, or words of wisdom to teach us a lesson.
My lesson came yesterday while reading a book. It wasn't that I was doing something but someone else was doing on my behalf that I should be doing for others. A simple gesture really. But I ponder, why did I stop....what part of God's grace did I forget. Or did I think too highly of my own self to forget to do what he presented in the book. Not matter the reason, I felt it. The deep remorse of God's grace forgotten. It's almost like a knife in the back, but it wasn't my back...it was Jesus'.
What was the simple gesture.....to pray for the store clerk, the mechanic, the girl down the street, really to anyone I meet. Not a public prayer, but a quiet, silent prayer to God. To make their day better, to guide their thoughts to him, to bless them and to care for them.
A song comes to mind and I encourage you to listen to it as well.
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Break my heart for what breaks yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause
Show me how to love like you have loved me. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ajFnnKFivY)
The line, break my heart for what breaks yours, is a reminder that our hearts should break for the same things that breaks the heart of God. I pray that your own conviction is a lesson learned.